Am I In?

Am I in? 

Even though I believed in Jesus, was involved in my church community and taking Bible study, I still wondered if I had done enough or been good enough to get in to heaven.  If I died today would I go to heaven?  I wasn’t sure.  In fact, I was afraid.  I was trying to live the life God would want.  But was it enough to make up for those really ugly years?  Doubt was a cloud hanging over my head.

I can’t point to one day when the cloud blew away.  It was more a gentle breeze of continued study, deeper relationship and an openness to see that God is still active in the world.  He is real.  His promises are true.  Gradually, I believed, accepted and felt God’s love.  I also forgave myself.

Grace, by definition, is undeserved and God knows I don’t deserve His love.  I cannot earn it.  Nor can I lose it no matter what.  God loves you.  Believe and accept His unconditional love.  Don’t let your heart wonder if you’re ‘in’.  Trust Him.  There is room for everyone who trusts.